How long has it been? A couple of months? A year or two. It's been too long that's what I think.
So this is for you, my dear dedicated fans who have been searching up blogspot on the daily to get just a hit of personal information from some rando on the internet named Camryn. First, I must apologize to all zero of you who I have let down by going radio silent; it's been a crazy year or (however long) and I've been a busy bean! What with getting a job (y'all can hold your applause), finally making steps towards healing my eczema, covid being a real bitch, and strangling the ever loving life out of my social skills, you might be able to imagine why I've been away for so long. Well, tell that brain of yours to stfu and sit down because now that I'm back it's time to disclose the events of the last two years, hold onto your hats folks because we're ripping down the highway of hell that is this so called life.
Firstly, let's address the elephant in the room: my lack of jobbing. Yes it is true, as of right now I am unemployed. In April of 2021 I got my first job as a 2d animator at the best studio in all of BC, Yeti Farm Creative. To say it was a impossible start is an overstatement but I'm all for the dramatics so here we go: In-studio animation is so far from school life I almost didn't survive. The first few months (even more than that but I'm trying to save face) were an immense struggle. I felt behind my colleagues: constantly handing in work that just wasn't good enough, having mini panic attacks in the bathroom (more so related to intense anxiety), and always needing just a little more help. It most certainly wasn't pretty, however I am forever grateful for the overwhelming amount of support I received from Yeti coworkers. It was because of the chances I was given and the help I received that I was able to make it through and even got a second contract from them (okay now you can applaud). I was finally in the swing of things and crazy enough I actually started to enjoy work. I became better as an animator and I started to take on more responsibility. I remember that on my last day of work I was assisting with revisions and our Director (won't name him but cool dude), who had around the start of my first contract told me in the sweetest way possible "bruh you need to step up your game" sent me a message expressing his gratitude for the extra work I put in and how much my efforts had helped. I was flabbergasted to say the least and have since regretted not messaging a quick "thank you" back (I had already said my goodbyes via discord and I was working from home with lots of anxiety riding me, get off my back). When the end of my contract had rolled around I was down with the jive of animation and ready to get back into work, this however, leads us into the sadder days of current: I yearn for another job but not just any job, I want to work at Yeti Farm Creative again. There has been talk about them green lighting more shows and my hopes are so high they're chasing the dragon in the sky. I've gotten a semi-legit confirmation about my return to the studio, however as the months roll on my expectations waver and the thoughts of applying to a different studio continue to float through my mind. Now, I know what you must be thinking: "but Camryn, how can you afford to live the luxurious life of eating lots of hot pockets and having a roof over your head in these costly housing days, how do you afford rent and gas and hot pockets!" and to that I say thank you very much HR of Yeti Farm (you're cool too) for helping me get set up on EI immediately. And even though I can still afford to live in a house I continue to dream of the day I get another animation job, hopefully sooner than later, I've been putting off buying new jeans for months.
That was quite the paragraph huh, I actually wasn't planning on writing that much so now here is a brief overview of everything else that's happened to me since I've been gone: After a rigorous and itchy process I received a very esteemed, very classy sponsorship for my eczema so I can finally treat the flairs, it's called dupixent, look it up, pronounce it wrong, do whatever you'd like with that. Next, let's talk about covid, anyone tired of hearing about it yet? No, good! I think I got it once, nothing over the top or bad which is good (because I got VACCINATED and did my diligence to stay SAFE and didn't spend every sickly breathing second of my day trying to smear the use of masks because omg how hard is it to wear a mask and have a little empathy you pathetic baby if your sensibility is as thin as toilet paper then don't be mad when I use it to wipe my ass ).......ahem, sorry I got some strong opinions there that I didn't expect to come out. Anyways, covid sucks, people suck more, that's enough of that. A much needed highlight of my life is moving in with my boyfriend to a place with great neighbors, friends nearby, and the ability to clean dishes in a high tech power washing machine so advanced and ahead of it's time I sometimes can't dirty dishes fast enough for it. So that's all fun, I would say it isolated me more because beforehand I had been living in a charming little house with my five other roommates, (a dish washer would have really come in handy there) but to be real I was never one big on having a social life because I'm "not good at it" and it "gives me overwhelming anxiety" and the fact that "I'd rather be at home ". I think having a job with yeti is what gave me the biggest confidence boost: I felt like I had to attend certain events and while they were stressful they were also fun and even if it didn't seem like it I was able to come out of my shell just a little bit.
So there's your update, now all of y'all can stop hounding me for information, like jeez give it a rest all of you no ones. I'll try and remember to post once I get another job but with my track record I wouldn't hold your breath. Just remember, when you're feeling like a zero with the burden of the world on your shoulders, maybe you feel like you're not worth much or your achievements don't matter: just think of me. I am using my precious time from my day to type out this novel of an update which probably no one will read or ever know of it's existence. So why do I do it? Because it was fun and sometimes you don't need a reason for doing things, sometimes simply enjoying yourself is enough. But seriously though I could have been trying to get a job, cleaning my house, reading a good book, any number of things, but I don't regret it and it doesn't feel like a waste of time. And with that I bid you goodbye, have a fantastic life my brethren.
PS the show I worked on is called Summer Memories, I think it's been nominated for some awards, it's super dope check it out on the Family Channel, what else are you going to do with your time anyways, read this? I don't think so.
